Open Wound

It's Fitting that I busted open my hand out of anger on the way home from LAX. Because like my newly opened cut I'm feeling the pain of her leaving my side. When thinking of her absence this next couple of months will be tough, but like my swollen hand the pain will subside and getting through this will be manageable. Tonights had enough sadness so I must stay positive, and look forward to the steps I need to take to reach my goals. For now I sleep.
- Rockwell

Ballin

So far this week I've been playing basketball everyday, working on my shot and different moves. My goal is to get into game day shape. Tonight me and Casey are going to play at the Newport Rec. court. We both need to work on our game and get rid of all the rust. I want to get my hotspot side jump shot back as well as up my cardio so I can compete in a full length game. Time to put in work.

Auto Pilot

The blogs I've been writing recently have all been about my girlfriend, I never realized it would have such an intense effect on me. She visits in a couple weeks and it's literally all I can think about. Today went by without me realizing and I got a feeling I'm going to be on auto pilot until she gets here.

Waiting for life

Can't sleep, very annoyed with everyone, sometimes I think my gf is the only person on this planet i like. So disappointed in how I've been living I just want to be focused on my goals. And it blows that I don't have her with me to help. She always seems to make things sensible.

Stoked

Just got the good news my girlfriend kiki is comin for a visit yee buddy
- Rockwell

Distraction is key

It's only been a week that she's been gone and it's already going slow, she's all I can think about. The only thing I can do to try n speed up this tough time is focus my energy on the gym, I'm a couple days into my new routine and feeling good about it. I know I'm mentally ready to commit to getting a solid body. Now time for a protein shake and bed cuse I got sit-ups and jogging in the the AM then gym and more jogging in the afternoon.
- Rockwell

Torn up

I'm laying awake unable to stop my brain from going over how upset I'm going to be when she leaves. I'm confidant in what we have but it's going to probably be the second hardest thing I'm going to have to go through in life. The anticipation of losing someone for a long time is nothing short of painful, i have to remind myself that it isn't forever that she is going to be away. I need to sleep this off
- Rockwell